Weakness &Strength

Everyone I know has always either loved or hated that I was an impenetrable wall. I've always had difficulty confiding in anyone, including my own family &blood. There are very few people who've admired the strength that I've had since I was a kid. I've gone through a lot of things that have weighed heavy on my tiny body, &my family has gone through enough as it is as well.

But if there's one person that I've learned to trust &love is my best friend Albert. That boy or well, man... has such a head on his shoulders. He's smart, patient, caring &considerate &most importantly understanding. I've always turned to him for just about anything. He was there for me when I came out to my parents. He was there for me when I had a "blonde moment", even though he made fun of me more lol. &He was there for me during my last break up, which unfortunately turned out ugly, but now thankfully is balancing itself out. He's never once failed me.

&Now, tomorrow morning (06.30.09) he leaves to Utah to train for a two year mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. (Yes, the Mormons.) &Soon there after, in about a month. He's off for two years to preach the gospel to those in Mendoza, Argentina. Two years. Imagine me, my best friend is leaving for two years.

I'm not one to be emotional in front of people, or much less...cry! But yesterday, he was set apart as a missionary. I balled. I cried. I choked up. But it was all mixed emotions, I hysterical because I was beginning to realize that he was actually leaving. But, I was also happy for him, &so proud of him. It takes great courage &faith to sacrifice two years of your life to serve the Lord and the people. It took me about 10 to 15minutes to compose myself. I was like lost. I didn't know what to do or what to say. Because I could no longer hug him, only shake his hand, since he was officially a missionary. I literally stood in front of him &smiled &teared, shook his hand...sort of. It was very very weird. I didn't know what to do. It sucked, it really did. Here's proof lol.

But now I can only think about the great things he's going to do as a missionary in Argentina. I know for a fact that this will impact his life greatly. He's a fighter and a lover, so he will be capable of amazing things out there. He has a great personality &he's just an overall great person. He's going to capture lives out there. He's gonna do wonderful things. I know it, he'll be an amazing missionary. I know this.

Although seeing him leave at the airport is going to be difficult. I'm going to be strong for him, &support him 100% He knows that. I might cry. But I'm being strong. As strong as I can be. Either way, I'm very happy and proud, and I love Elder Albert David Orduna. He's my best friend. &I'll see again when I'm 21.

I have an interview with Mr. Cookie tomorrow at 11am. I wonder how much of a mess I'll be looking. Ha! Anyway. Aright.

Albert, if you get a chance to read this. &I'll see you tomorrow, &I'll see you in two years man. God bless you on your amazing journey. You'll do amazing things. Know I will always be here, &I'll be writing you. Love you bee-eff-eff-eff [:

cakesout!